Exactly a year ago, on this same day, I sent a message to my friend and I did not expect that from there, I’d be spending the best days of my life! I did not even know that life is actually beautiful if we just live it right. I thought my life would be forever just doing the same things. And I actually settled to that idea thinking, “okay this is my life. I’ll do this and that and I will be happy forever and ever”. But guess what, I did this and that, but I wasn’t happy like I thought I was. I just came to the point when I felt like my life is just too repetitive and predictable. The feeling of just walking then running and then walking again with no direction. I got tired and bored and felt like I was going nowhere or if there’s actually something waiting for me at the end of the road. And then, I made a decision and wrote that message. That message became the start of everything wonderful and life got better and better from then on.
It’s been a year. And what a great way to see how my life changed through this blog. I’ve been backreading everything and to sum it all up, some (if not most) of my blog entries composed of my everyday activities and parties with not so good words/expressions and distorted mindsets and beliefs. It’s embarrassing. Really. But that was me. I’ve been that person for 18 years until God finally made me new. I’m not saying I am now perfect. I’m still a work in progress. I have done a lot of mistakes even after my turning point but He never gave up on me, He continued pursuing me and I’ll forever be grateful how He leads me back every single time. He changed my life.
And today, I’m celebrating my first Christian birthday! I’m so blessed that God gave me not only a new life but also a new family. I’m so thankful to my lifegroup leader and members, Dianne, Sheic and Kaye for walking with me through everything and also Ate Anna who counseled me last year for V-week and became one of my most trusted Ate^^ I really appreciate my spiritual family (LIFEBOX UPM) for being such wonderful and godly people. You friends continue to inspire me. I’ve never been this contented and secured in my life. Now that I know my place and my identity in Him, I can never ask for anything more. I don’t deserve any of this but He gave it to me and even blessed me with so much more. I was a mess but He loved me anyway. And because of this, what can I do but surrender my life and return all the glory to Him.
Thank You so much for granting me a new life and for giving me the chance to see how beautiful it can be. You are all I need. Thank You for everything that You’ve blessed me with for the past 19 years. I’m sorry that it took me so long to hear You and that I’ve turned away so many times. But I’m so grateful that when I looked back You were still there arms opened wide, ready to embrace me with Your overwhelming love. It’s with You and your enabling grace that I can do things. The day I knew You and received Christ as my Lord and Savior is and will always be the best day of my life.
I love You with all my heart, soul and mind.
P.S. Kung san ka, dun ako! Pramis! :)